God, I hate this.

I'm once again blogging because I'm at a loss about a boy. A boy whom, at the moment, I'm not official with. But, a boy with whom I was and has since asked to become official again, then to decide that he doesn't know what he wants.

I love him, but he drives me mad. He's so indecisive, and he's the king of mixed signals and miscommunication. He'll say something and mean another, and in order to truly understand him, you must be a mind reader.

We broke up. I regretted it, and asked to get back together. I was declined.

A few weeks after that, he wanted to get back together. Because of the last sentence, you knew what I was feeling - and we did. It was wonderful - for a while.

He decided that he wanted to be single again. He said that the title was putting a strain on our relationship, but that things work out better for us when we're not titled. After a few weeks, it was being treated as if it was over. Then, he decided that since we didn't have the titles anymore he needed time to decide about whether he wanted to be with me, or be single.

He's acting as though he's made up his mind, but he won't tell me. He treats me like shit lately, and barely gives me the time of day. He is insistant that he's single, and maintains that if asked, he will say that he's single. I just looked at his MH for the first time in forever, and it says that he's looking for an LTR.

And, LTR? Hello? I'm right here. Isn't that what we're doing? You said you were choosing between me and single. Where does someone else fall into this?

It's just not working out right now, but I'm trying to make it. He's acting as though he doesn't want it, but he's just being a douche bag about it. I almost feel like he's doing this on purpose. He won't even talk to me about it.

He barely ever talks to me, but we'll hang out every once in a while. He's leading me on like you couldn't believe, but insists that he isn't. He says that I'm staying on my own will, but fails to realize the signals he's sending.

¶ 15:29