Why am I so different? Why am I so strange?

Why am I so lonely?

¶ 22:19

The first snows fell today, and I slept through them. I slept like an animal today, and I have no ambition to do anything at all. After my little 13 hour nap, I awoke only to eat, and have since come back to lay on my bed...

I love the snow.

I had the day off from work, which I haven't had a monday off in a long time. I have class tomorrow, but I haven't finished two papers. I sure hope that I get those done. But, I doubt I will. I don't like having today off. I don't like to be idle. I do stupid things when I'm bored, including buying stupid things that I don't need, or engaging in casual sex with people whom I barely know. Fortunately, I didn't do the former today.

Many firsts happened to me last night, or, well, very early this morning. I'm hesistant to blog about them because I don't want to upset a certain person that I think it would. Feel free to ask me about it, though.

¶ 15:53