I haven't posted in a while, but I know that there are no followers. I consider this just an outlet for my emotions that I simply do not know how to control.

Anyway, JJB is coming to fruition, and I'm getting excited. I've the job 95% lined up, and I've been looking at cars. I'm also looking at BFs. I'm starting to kick it over in my head, and I think I am ready for a serious relationship. Most of my past relationships have been casual sex and I've never done anything seriously.

I do think I'm ready. I think I'm ready to take on a mature and prospering relationship. This, of course, will be infinitely easier once my braces come off. They are soo fugly, I hate them. They should be off by summer, so hopefully, next month will be my last. I count summer as when its getting really hot out, but giving the man the benefit of the doubt, June 21st or bust.

Sam, Phil and I have been getting more active, and reaching out to some of our mutual friends more. It's nice. It was Erik, Andy, Sam, Phil and I the other day playing frisbee. I'm SOOO BAD AT IT. I can't get it to go right, and when it does... it's weak. I'm working on it.

Erik, Andy, Cait, Dan, Phil and I hung out for a little bit at Cait's work after Dan and I went looking at cars. We didn't do anything, but just chat. And it was fun. Sam had to go to work... :-(

After that, Dan, Phil and I went and did something, and then we wound up at MP. We walked around and played pear. It was good.

It really is the simple things that matter most.

I'm really glad that Dan and I are hanging out more. We've drifted apart recently, and I don't know why. I'm happy that we're closing the gap. We used to be really good friends, and then... we just... drifted. We were both really busy with different things, and I'm glad our friendship made it through the proverbial fog. I'm glad that I have friendships like that.

Phil, Sam and I have gone through periods of months when one of us didn't talk to the other, but, we've always made it through. I love you guys. Well, Not just you... I love Dan and JnC and EnA and everyone.

Sam got a new James... This one is a JL model. She likes this one infinitely more than the other, and one can just tell that she is happy with him. She is happy when she talks about him. She is happy when he calls her, and she is just happy. She is changing for him, though. I know its a change for the better, but it's still a change. She has decided to end drugs and alcohol, and I know she's been trying, but now she really is. Anyway, we've all (Sam, Phil, James and I) hung out once and it was okay. Nothing amazing, but he's passed the initial tests.

Phil lost his James... Not that anything more was expected. It came up in the park last night, that James has a new object. JS or JQ or something queer. I felt kinda bad for Phil, but he knew that nothing would EVER come of it. That doesn't mean that he didn't want something to come out of it.

It seems that everyone has had a James, but me. LOL. Who knows? Something could be right around the bend.

Ummm....

Well, the other day, I got a fortune cookie that did, if not predict my future, raise my spirits. It told me that I would someday walk on the soil of many countries. That, really, just... I loved it. I love traveling, and now I guess I have something to look forward, too. Not that a piece of paper wedged in a styrofoam cookie can, in any way, predict the future... but it's cool to think it might.

I stayed home today, the day before a week vacation. Phil was going to sleep over, but I told him that I was going to school. When my alarm went off this morning, I was like ALKSJDLK FUCK YOU ALARM, and it was shut off. I'll miss more MacBeth in English... :-((((((((( Just fucking kidding.

I have to clean my room... it's soooo messy; I've said that a few times but this time is THE time it actually gets done. I have a haircut today.

More to follow.

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