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It seemed an elegant solution.

It was hot today, and I when I got in my car, it was even hotter. I rolled down my windows, opened my sunroof, and drove to Dunkin' Donuts for my iced coffee. I tried blueberry, more on that later. After DD, I made the short trip over to the Jensens, where I parked my car in the shade. I'm guessing that this what my thought process: 'It's kinda hot, I'll park in the shade and leave my windows open.' Well, when it was time to leave, there were leaves in and all over my car. I almost had to rake everything out, and I still haven't got it all. I guess it's over to Mike's to get my car Dyson-ed again.

Well, at the Jensen's they were getting ready for some event up at Hampden Country Club, and they were stressed. Erik asked me to iron his pants for him. Then his shirt. Then his dad's pants and shirt, and then Andy's shirt was there so I did that too. I'm pretty sure JX2 would fail without me. I ran their dishwasher after they left, because there were no clean coffee cups, and because Mom's on vacation. I don't think a Jensen can function properly without coffee...

So, I'm talking to Phil again, and I still don't know why he was mad. The thing is that he is no longer mad, so that's good. He's going to the movies tonight with his new MySpace boyfriend to whom he proffessed an undying love for while intoxicated. Oh, the things we do for love. He wanted me to go bowling with him, but I'm soo bad at it. I maintain that I am the worst bowler on the planet. And, that shall never change. It's just destiny. I can't bowl. I think it's kinda like your sensory perceptions. For example: blind people can hear better than most. I think that because I'm very bad at bowling, I'd probably kick ass somewhere else. I just wish I knew where.

I've decided to give MySpace its due. There really isn't a reason that I haven't become more integrated with mainstream teens... so why not? I was reading some of the bulletins that I got, and one of them was amazing. It was something that Mike sent, and it read as such:

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.So repost this in the next 5 minutes and a miracle will happen tonight.

Now, I didn't send it anyone, so there was no miracle. :-( But, I do like the message. I especially like the part where it says, "... every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back." As I was saying to Mike afterward,: "...some of them are entertaining and insightful."

I invited several people to be my friends. Yay. Go MySpace.

I haven't seen Dan for a while, but I did talk to him for about 3 minutes this morning. It was a conversation brimming with excitement as I was tired and he on his way to work. I told him to call me when he gets out. I don't know when that'll happen.

Everyone keeps asking questions about Mike, and he did correct me and told me that he was single. Naturally, as the questions rolled in, I did wonder. I guess I could like Mike that way, and he's extremely nice, exceptionally polite, well-versed about all manners of speak, knows where he is going in life, how to get there and he's adorable too. I don't know if he's up for that kind of a relationship. Either way, I do think he's awesome, and I plan to get to know him better. My old attractions still linger, though... Sometimes I wonder if they'll ever go away. They've been around for a very long time.

I had planned to finish my projects before I started a relationship. I want my braces off, and I planned to get in better shape. Which by the way, reminds me. I haven't posted any progress. Well, since I started, I've grown two inches, lost about 30 pounds, and I feel way healthier. I didn't like the old me and I'm glad that it's finally going away. I'm much more active, mentally and physically, and I have much higher self esteem. I was looking at an old picture of myself today, and I really saw a change.

Overall, I'm just happier.

I 've grown to hate the old me. I consider myself an extremely different person now than I was then. I had all sorts of physical ailments that were caused by nothing more than my being overweight, and now they are gone. It was so simple, I wish someone had told me that. My quality of life is so much better. I know what I want to become, and I know how to do it. It's only time holding me back.

Enough rambling.

I love Broadway, and I want to see every single Andrew Lloyd Webber work that there is. I have a CD in my car that's just... so awesome. I can't describe it. The music is euphony, and they lyrics are poignant. It's quite lovely. Anyone up for going to see some shows?

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